Red tape

Suddenly my life is being run by red tape. I managed to finally see something. The joker was right. If u do something for free you lose your value. I was building the college website for free. Currently the setup is a simple html file serving business with a windows server. Completely open to a mimt attack. The site structure is a mess. Out of pity and a sense of belonging I made a django based website for them.

Not a very polished job but still lightyears ahead of the current setup. This is what i call constructive competition. Now the administration who updates the site wants me to plug this into frontpage2003. WTF!
Instant boilover. They dont want it. So i deleted the s=repo on the spot from my local computer. Of course i kept it on github so that i dont lose that work in case they come back to their senses.

However i now have a good mind to do some destructive competition. I wont but the administration deserves some.

Secondly for some reason the police verification of my passport failed. They say the same person was not presented upon verification as who applied for passport. WTF the policeman really did it.
We are forever lost and found in this world of laws. Laws of man ,made by man to govern man.

Red tape.

Youth. Lost.

Last night as i lay down to sleep, like most of the times I began to dream. A dream of thought. Where one leads to another and the thread of thought stretches on.

I thought of myself. I wonder if everyone is as lost as I am. We have no purpose. This clamour over being an all rounder. The average kid being able to hold her own in any field. It was good back in the days before industrial revolution. A child followed the family business. There was purpose. Now there is none. You see the illusion of free will is that from a very youg age we a re allowed to do anything.

Its like we are drowning at sea. There are a thousand boats that can save us but we have to swim to them. The thing is that only when we reach the boat do we see it's holes. In the hope of finding a boat with minimum holes we have all become boat hoppers. This is what free will does. This is what choice does. In all my short life I have come to know that once you are on the boat, stick to it.

This boat hopping behaviour leads to nincompoops in all the boats. Spineless men who leave when the shit hits the fan.This is simply youth lost. Freedom is not choosing something aout of whim and no person stopping you. Freedom is when you choose something while there is resistance to your choice. That is freedom. Freedom comes not from the acceptance of others but rather from the will of our own selves.

Im blabbing again. Maybe I should shop writing this stuff. Or not. Who knows. If I am one in  a million who are lost. Maybe there are a hundred like me. Maybe we all can get to gether and go to the same boat and stay there for better or for worse.

Back from the dead

I was busy with the college website. Back from the dead.
The thing with me is I cannot hold onto something long enough. I guess that is what everyone is like. It takes a lot of will to keep doing something.

Newfound respect from my father who has been doing the same thing for the last 20 years. Thats will. Getting up everyday and going to office even when he knows nothing new is going to happen.

These last days I saw something. Placements are going on in college. Its a big deal. You see the course Im doing has only a simple science gradation degree. Getting placed is a big thing here. The funny part is how people with amazing records will clamour for jobs even when they know that they will get better ones. Its like even though you are good; and you know it, you just cannot help that feeling that there are a million just like you.

This past semester we were taught physics by Dr. Jacob Cherian. The Physics honours students say hes a douchebag. Does nothing but tell stories and insult people in class. I violently disagree. He tells stories so that things stick in our heads. You are more likely to remember the laws of motion if they happened to your teacher intead of 'a point object'. Also the insulting is what i like. It shows the holes in our ideas and what the 'EDUCATION' system has done to us. In my opinion hes the one teacher who knows teaching is not about holding our hand and leading us. Its about pointing the way and smiling as we get bloodied.

More on this later. I think I finally named this blog correctly. Have no purpose.